yesterday me and wendy went to erin mills to shop for xmas gifts..
took us 10-15 mins to look for parking..super long
We went to a bunch of stores..i liked this sweater/hoodie/ maybe jacket? from stitches actually 2.
This Yellow and black checkered/plaid hoodie with wool everywhere inside but the sleeves..i'm gonna assume its super warm. The other sweater i like is a pink and black or black and greay sweater/jacket that looks like a army jacket kinda...very pretty but i like the yellow/black better..it reminds me of the yellow and brown sweater i wanted at forever 21 last year..similar..cheaper..i think..probably is.

i don't think i'll ever forget what happened at the gas station...it overflowed..alot! that is a first..
usually when the tank is full the pump would stop on it's own but this one just kept going..

This week has been meh.
Snow has arrived.
I'm still adding and deleting things from my wish list for b-day and x-mas.
subscription to seventeen ended :(
reading a book by stef ann holm. so far good. liked the first book i read of hers.
thinking that its nerdy that i want to put books on my wish list.
eyes are pink from ichy it all night.
upset about ghost whisperer's story line after jim dies. me not pleased.
starting to get hungry after eating 2 bags of natural popcorn.
cleaned my room a bit.

now i'm just brainstorming or daydreaming.

ZZzzzZZZZZzzzzzzZZZzzz

I'm starting to get in a real rotten mood..this week.
I just get easily annoyed and ticked off..i'm not sure if it's pms or something..

My friend is being s complete "wanna be" she's always been like that but this week its been annoying me or i've been noticing it more and more each day.
For our halloween dance on thursday..she wants to drink blah blah, i'm thinking why are you risking it..its our last year which is important cause of colleges and universities and you're gonna risk all of it cause you want to "fit in" or look/act cool by drinking? Please. be your own character for once.

she is just assuming things of me..like oh i'm gonna drink with her because we do everything together..pfft yea right.
I swear if her attitude doesn't change i'm going to go mental on everyone's ass.

i need emotional and mental help this month...GOD!

Grad/ Random

So i thought i would write what happened on my grad photo day, my old crush walked by and took a few steps back towards the room door and just stared at me for a few secs. It was an awkward moment..

Now for my school's halloween dance, i'm thinking of going as a French Maid?

I'll just mix & match stuff from old costumes i guess.

I wonder if it's gonna be pact like it was last year..since we're allowed to bring guests this year it might be more pact then ever/

I'm excited to go!!!!! ayayay

On November 13, 2008 will be an exciting day! WotLK is OUT!

hmm..i'll need to get GC and EP..so i can reunite with my baby. hehe

Today i got my grad photo taken..it was..weird. "tilt your head a little bit more, more, Thats it! hold it! *flash*"

i'm happy that it's over.

*yawn*

i'm kinda tired but i'm not in the mood to give in to sleep yet. i still want to stay on the computer or do something!.

i'm finding the internet less interesting each day but i don't want to give it up. confusing confusing.

i came back from christie's house a few hours ago..it was fun.i had such a hard time sleeping though, i'm pretty sure that i was the last one to falll asleep around 2:45ish?
earlier today i felt sick to my stomach..i blame motion sickness and spring rolls.

i don't like co-op that much anymore..i hate walking to school (15 min walk) just to go to 1 class (math) and then eat lunch then go on the bus and stand/walk around for 3 hours then volunteer after that. luckily volunteer is only mondays & tuesdays. i can't wait for next semester..or near end of this semester so i can stay at school..i much rather do that then going back and forth.

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i think i might like "it" ?
argh i don't know

Today i spent my afternoon filing graduation forms..took 2 periods/classes. at least i finished.
it was awkward i was stuck filing papers with "it"..

i'm bored,hot, and sticky..damn humidity.
I woke up at 9: something am and couldn't go back to sleep..so i decided to read that didn't help..it just made more awake i guess.

tomorrow me and my parents are going to chinatown Toronto.

The first week of school is near done. My number for course changes was called, 132, longest wait of my high school life. I feel like all my attention spam is going towards "it" which i feel is wrong. I should be thinking of other stuff not just that. Starting tomorrow.

Today we were in the library for Co-op and me and a few other friends were done so we sat around a table and waited for 40 mins. "it" came to our table and started making small talk and "it" left then came back singing an old song..i think. I can't really remember but i think it had something to do with forgivness and second chances. I wasn't thinking at that time, i was day dreaming as usual. But when i came home i was thinking and now i'm wondering if that song was leaning towards me? I don't want to be or come out as self-centered but i'm just curious to why that song and why was it sung infront of me.

i feel like i'm over-reacting which i probably am.

Today was the first day of school, it was alright kinda sad thinking that its my last year.
My first class i hate with all my heart. Individuals and Families. I'm planning to switch out of this class into either World issues with my friend lisa or Challenge and Change. I just hope that both classes are available. especially C&C its an open course so i'm crossing my fingers for that.

The rest of my classes are good, i like math for once i got my old math teacher from gr.10 he's good i'm excited for that. My co-op is good i got some what of a good class :)

"it" is in my class and i saw my friend that was in my class as well and i waved to her and i guess "it" misunderstood and waved to me LMAO! i'm sorry thats too funny. "it" says we should sit together in the lab. should we?

/sigh

Tomorrow i'm going to pacific mall so that will be fun, to get away from oakville for a few hours.

God, "it" messaged me on msn asking what classes i have for this year and next and i told "it" and we're in a class together. 1 word. Awkward.

i continue to tell myself that everything is gonna be alright and all that shit, but a part of me doesn't believe it. Why does my senior year have to be so complicated and confusing?

i have so many questions that need to be answered.

1.why did "it" msg me after a year?

ok i only have 1 question, but i'm pretty sure there will be more in the future. I'm probably over reacting but i can't help it. Once i saw my taskbar flash orange from a msg on msn, my mind was FLOODING with questions. my eyes were widening and i began talking to myself out loud which is embarrassing. good thing i was alone atm.

This week "it" seems distant, don't know if it's because school is starting on tuesday or something else?

Someone i know was out with a friend for dinner and saw "it" and "it" was driving by and stopped and asked my friend to say hi to me for "it".

The thing that pisses me off the most is that after last year i was doing perfectly fine on my own. I didn't like anyone, well that's a lie, i liked someone after but turns out he doesn't like asian girls. Anyways after that i was some what free from this topic/issue and then beginning of August, BAM! msg from the past. Why! just like a quote from LC " It's like a radar he has. Oh. lauren is doing Ok better call her."

I don't know what to do, i don't know how to act towards/infront of "it"

to sum it up.

I'm Screwed.

i think i'm going insane. This month has been unpredictable and confusing.

i try SO hard to not think about "it" but i can't stop! i swear everytime "it" talks to me i get nervous to be honest.i just don't know what to do. i'm in a rut and i want to get out of it.

i'm just curious to see what happens when school starts.

i need help, i need to be sane again.

huh? that's gross

i have a few more days till school starts. eek.

so i decided to get prepared and wake up around 8-9. i pressed snoozed and fell asleep till 9:30ish. i got up, did my stuff in the washroom. i went downstairs and i fell asleep on the couch. gah.

now i'm awake after eating Kraft dinner..yum :P

i'm watching the tyra show and it's about how girls start out in prostitution. It was disgusting. there was a dad who is a manager to his daughter and does her hair, make up and even WAXES her legs and the big V! that's just nasty. Most of the girls that are in this "bunny house" are old. like really old, around 27 and up the youngest would be 18?..it's just degrading to think girls are doing this as a "career" 

i just came back from my registration and it was the longest wait of my life to take my photo. i actually waited in line for 1 hour..doesn't seem that long but it was a lifetime for me.

i have a song from wedding singer stuck in my head..its the only one i like..the last one on the plane <3

gah tomorrow is my registration day. school is starting so quickly :(
been playing rockband alot so far. already i dented the drum sticks...whoops.
i have no idea but i've been fussy over my hair and how it should look tomorrow..i think i'm gonna leave it down like always :P alot easier.

um, well i guess thats all i can think to write..
bye?

these past few weeks have been depressing.

why? school is starting. It will be my last year, which is also part of the reason.

yesterday i watched "Across the Universe" its an okay movie..i didn't like the story but i liked the songs they sang. pretty catchy.

Monday is my registration day :'( already. ah time for me to choose my lockers and get my photo taken.. hooray?

its 3:41am..i should sleep.

night

love cin.

hmm..it is 3:07am in canada and i am awake making a blogger account. First time here..usually on a website called live journal, no one interesting is on there now a days..that site is slowly going down hill. very sad.

well, not too sure what i can write about except for the fact that i don't want school to start?

you know when school is coming when you start to see back to school commercials or sales at department stores.

summer went by so fast, it's a shame to think that in a few weeks i'll be picking my locker all over again. *sigh*

well thats all i can say for tonight/morning.

love, cin